to blog or not to blog

Monday, June 04, 2012

WHY BLOG?? what is the purpose of blogging? or rather, what is the purpose of blogging for me? in the course of seeing several other blogs, i realized the beauty and flaw of blogging. the author(s) can be very selective. so some people appear to have perfect, fairy tale marriages. you know, the kind that make you and your spouse feel, what's the word, inadequate? deranged? or simply you think, "what's wrong with us?" until you realize, oh it's really not us, it's them! no seriously, it really is them. they either are flat out lying, or they're just in that euphoria phase. they haven't hit their bumps in the road yet. but since david and i are high functioning, we're ahead of the curve so to speak. not only have we sped, with reckless abandon, down our road, hitting many bumps and falling into ditches, sometimes it seems as if we are OFF ROADING altogether. only we have no control and we are literally spinning and i am screaming (also literally).

or the other kinds of blogs that inspire you to bake or go gourmet with your little cuisine-art food processor. hours later, not only does your creation not exactly match that blog picture, but your kitchen has also imploded on itself. (solution: leave the clean up job for hubby, as you not so quietly have a break down on the couch). i won't even mention the questionable-tasting final product.

well here on this blog, let me say, we're flawed, majorly flawed. there are no perfect people in the carlson house. and life definitely does not always work itself out according to our plans, though this has certainly NOT stopped me from trying to plan out every step of our lives. (i'm determined if nothing else!) but to admit that, and talk about the sometimes not so wonderful life experiences, especially on a blog, leaves you vulnerable. vulnerable to your readers' opinions. vulnerable to their judgments. and vulnerable to their unsolicited advice.

but let's be honest, i'm not the kind of person who sees the positive side of everything. my response to a car accident would not be, "well at least we're all safe and alive," though that should probably be my response. my actual response would most likely be "crap, how are we going to afford another car," and "david, i told you to slow down you retard!" (wife of the year award winner, i know). if you're looking for a happy-go-lucky, everything smells like roses, we're on the peak of mount happy blog, you are definitely in the wrong place. blogging about the hard life experiences is not only cathartic, but it helps to highlight the greatly wonderful things in life. getting through the dark makes us love the light more. after each winter, we know, spring is on the way. and often times, when we are at the bottom of the well, when we feel like we are sinking, acknowledging that we're sinking is the fastest way for someone to reach in and help us up and out.

so for now, this is why i blog. because life isn't perfect. but that doesn't make it any less wonderful.

Happy Monday (talk about the worst of times!)


1 comment:

  1. Good tip on making a mess then having a breakdown so you don't have to clean it up. I'll file that one away. ;)

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